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Yesterday was the first day of my life. Here are some of the things I remember. The drumbeats- rhythmically pounding.I was so used to that sound, but now I feel alienated from it. I feel an immense pressure on my head and I feel suffocated. I kick and push and I feel a way somewhere. I know I must get out. The pressure seems to be building. I move around. Where is the warmth that I felt all this while. Why am I being crushed? Why is it so bright? What just happened? Who are these people? Why am I cold?
Yesterday my son was born. All this while I had him near my heart. I could feel him move inside me. And now he must come out. It is time. What will he feel now?Will he still love me? Does he know what is happening? Can he process so much information? Does he know that the people holding him are his loved ones? Does he know he is in the real world? Does he...
I look up at a smiling face. I reach for it. And I feel loved. The face kisses my hand, coos in my ear. I feel wonderful and happy and I want to sleep. And I do...
I watch him sleep and the dream he dreams..The smile that is yet to be, the words yet to come, the feet yet to walk, the life yet to live. For now, I am content watching him sleep. And dream..

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"Xena!", your mother exclaims upon seeing you. You smile. She hugs you and takes you inside. I stand outside knowing I was not welcome. You mother has told you so many times that our worlds did not mix. But you never wanted to let me go. And neither did I- which is why I was here.

We were a tumultuous pair. One day was great and the next day was deadly. Both of us had huge egos and our personalities were unique. I remember how surprised you were when I introduced you as my fiance to my parents without giving you a notice and how irritated you were when I got down on one knee. Yes..our times together were indeed unforgettable. 

And yet the rest of the world seems to have forgotten. I have not. I saw you get ready for this party- The party that we planned. A gag it was supposed to be. Halloween parties usually are. I was to come as Hercules and you as Xena. I loved Lucy Lawless!! And you decided to humor me.

Here you are without me. I stand outside the house and look inside. You look at the where I stand- not seeing me but deep in thought. This one night I look at you. This one night I have, to say goodbye. This one night I have, when the barriers between spiritual and earthly world comes down. 

I blow a kiss in your direction. You don't see the kiss, you don't see me. Someone taps you on the shoulder and you turn away from me.

Goodbye, my Xena!